I haven’t posted a blog in a while...I think
it’s been longer than a month! Sorry about that! Here’s an update for you...
Last week, I went to Peachtree City, GA, and
spent the week with my youngest daughter; I, finally, got to meet my
granddaughter!! <3 It was the best week I've ever had...and I've got tons of pictures, too! Last week, I also celebrated my birthday (first birthday,
officially cancer free); I’m 44 years old, now! Yay, me!!
Three generations of survivors, there! Breast cancer, a difficult pregnancy, and attempted suicide! |
My birthday week was
AMAZING!! I loved getting to spend time with my daughter, her boyfriend, and my
granddaughter; and the boyfriend’s parents are such great people, too!! They
not only picked me up, from the airport; they also dropped me off, when it was
time to go home...and hugged me “good bye”! Love them!!
I have more pictures on my Facebook page (The Savvy Survivor)...including pictures of two birthday meals my daughter fixed
for me! They were delish!! So was the vegan birthday cake...made from scratch!!
I was there from Monday afternoon, to Friday
afternoon. Friday night, I had a strange dream, about my estranged husband (I mentioned him here); I
told him he needed to be the husband he promised me he would be....his answer
was, “I'm sorry; I can’t”. A few hours after I woke up, Saturday morning, I got told something
that has changed my life, forever.
I was told he had taken his own life,
Friday evening. Now, I understand why he told me he can’t be the husband he
promised he’d be, in my dream. He had struggled with bipolar disorder (un-diagnosed), for quite
a number of years; and was diabetic, as well. I’m coping with this, the best I
can...we never resolved the issues that split us up. I’m also having a hard
time dealing with the fact that he took his life, the day after my birthday.
My youngest daughter, and son, are his children; she's dealing with his death, much the same way I am...and, as of this post, I haven't heard back from my son.
The
Bible says murder is a sin (Exodus 20:13), and killing yourself is murder. However,
I am choosing to believe that God went to him, at his final breath, and he
asked God for forgiveness; if that’s true, he’s in Heaven, waiting for me....and we’ll see each other, again, some day.
I made this, to honor him....
My loves, I am begging you....please don’t consider
taking your own life, just because things may seem a bit difficult; suicide is
not the answer, it just creates more problems!!
Talk to someone...reach out for
help!! It’s there...someone will always be there to help you through the bad
times! You're NOT alone!!
Thank you for your love and support; it really means a lot to me! God bless you!! oxoxox
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